far too long

It has been far too long since i've blogged, or written down my thoughts. I think the current government shutdown and fact that my family has gone through more trials in the last week then we have in any given month has given me a very good reason to blog my thoughts and feelings and count my blessings. Since Tuesday, October 1st my husband has been furloughed and at home with no pay because of the government shutdown. Today we found out they are calling him back into work as well as the employees in his office. He is having to go to work and still not getting paid but because he is working he doesnt qualify for unemployment. ugh! Unfortunatly when it rains it pours, there have been a number of things going on and bad news that i am not at liberty to talk about. I am not good at dealing with stress and anxiety. My husband so lovingly pointed out we have several blessings and 2 of them are sleeping and that is the blessing. that they are asleep. and to think we want a third blessing to add to the crazy-ness that is our lives. I have been blessed in so many ways especially in the last 5 years i couldnt ask for a better husband and family. I couldn't be happier with the timing of new family coming into my life and for their loving me with all my crazy issues. I couldn't be more blessed that my husband does have a job (kinda) The gospel in my life has changed it in so many ways. I am glad to be a member of the church of jesus christ of latter day saints. I am blessed to have a best friend that is going out of town with my this weekend and loves me no matter what and is always there for me. I am blessed to have several friends that are always there for me. I could go on but thats enough to humble me and make me ready for whatever comes my way.

starting again

So I have started walking every morning with a friend of mine and she said I should blog more...and I think that might be easier if I didn't have an, Into everything, touchy, hitty, bitey, head butty, little stinker. but today will be the first day and hopefully I can keep it up.

November 27th we found out that I was pregnant and today I am 7 weeks and 1 day pregnant. It has been a pretty awesome thing... Its a little surreal thinking I will have another baby we will have 2 kids in 9 months.. wow crazy scary and exciting all in one.


I am a little sad that we wont be able to go home for christmas but also a little excited. We get to have a small family christmas...I know our families are sad and we are too and i wish there was a way we could make everybody happy...

My full time job.

I Love my life as a full time mommy and wife. I went out today with my son who was an amazing child. He loves being independent and walking on his own. He loves to fun up and down the stairs He just loves being out of the house. I wish that it would cool down a little bit ( a whole latta bit) so we could go to the park then I dont have to worry about spending money. But I will tell you my awesome day while spending very little money

1) salvation army, 1 pair of gaucho pants for me, you dont know jack computer game, and an interactive computer book for logan $4.33 ( none of which came out of our bank account)

2) picking up seans dry cleaning $19 not a very happy spending amout that did come out of the account.

3) dollar tree halloween decorations and a package of wet wipes $8 ( not out of the account)

4) denny's for lunch I had a 20% off coupon and got a grand slam for me and kids meal for logan 12.95 + 20% off coupon = $10 for lunch

5) blockbuster, Bridesmaids, dispicable me, and the switch for $12 dollars

so in total, i spent $43 out of our account and managed to have a wonderful day... now i just need to find a way to have just as much fun without spending any money

mommy in a strange place

A mom is a strange place to be all on its own, so lets pair that with being in a place way down south, where 90% of the population speak Spanish and people are already in smallish clicks. This mom comes from being social and looking forward to play groups and being a mom and enjoying the social aspect of getting to hang out with the moms with kids.


I know I am going to catch hell from the moms who "love" their jobs (BTW I absolutely love my job) and they will all tell me that I just need to find things that we both love doing..which would be so much easier if we weren't on a budget and it wasn't 100 degrees on a daily basis. I know I like to complain a lot and it's unflattering but oh freaking well...this way if you don't like it you don't have to read this.


Well this mommy is way down south in the clicks and play groups that only happen every once and a while and the moms who forget you...because they dont want to hang out with you or you only have 1 kid who still doesn't understand "playing" in the "PLAY group". So now I sit at home watching TV, cleaning house, and trying to keep myself sane with a crazy hyper 1 year old who loves mommy's attention 100% of the time. so the cleaning hardly gets done, unless its after 8pm when he is sound asleep in bed.


my venting is done, I feel like i can take a full breath, for those of you that read this whole annoying, gripy blog if you have thoughts and feelings about this please feel free to share I will be appreciated.

It's been a long while

I haven't posted in a while but Logan is asleep, my sourdough bread is rising and I am watching Tori and Dean, and the maintenance man is fixing my bath tub.


My life has been crazy fantastic and the last 8 months have been awesome. Logan is so big he is crawling and sitting up on his own and will pull himself up on anything that is sturdy enough to hold him up. my little chubs has been crazy growing so quickly. Being a mommy has been such a wonderful blessing and learning experience. I honestly cant wait until the time is right to have another baby and to grow our family. The Time Is NOT Right at the moment I promise.

School, I always thought I would love college and going to school like everyone else, ya no traditional college isn't really for me. I am thinking maybe going to a tech school and do something, just not right now maybe later. I am in love with being a full time mommy and wifey. I wouldn't change my life for anything.

I am hoping to start my own from home business I have made some hooded towels with decorations, on them and I love them and they are fun to do, I plan on selling them for $25 dollars and there are pictures on my FB at some point I will start making and selling other things I am thinking about learning how to customize onsies for babies and just having fun with stuff I enjoy doing.

South Texas, The Rio Grande Valley, South Padre Island, 45 min. from mexico. That is where I am living right now. I wont say I hate it but I also cant say I love it. Our new branch is awesome. I am going to girls camp on june 6-10 so sean gets to spend a week with the bug. I am super excited.

Signing off for now I will start writing more often I hope.

Marriage

Marriage by definition is as follows: the social institution under which a man and woman establish their decision to live as husband and wife by legal commitments, religious ceremonies, etc.
a blending or matching of different elements or components;




but by my definition hard work and endurance. No one ever said Loving someone unconditionally would be easy. Heck often I wonder if it is even worth the hard work that each side feels they put in and receive nothing in return (I am not necessarily talking about myself in full, I have talked to other husbands and wives that feel that they give and give and give and get very little in return. It goes both ways) and that is something that is often hard to cope with for some people. Me especially. Keep in mine I am not saying my husband does nothing because it is quite the opposite at times, I feel like I dont do enough for him. But its easy to get caught up in the normal need for people to expect something in return for doing something nice for other people. Sometimes a simple thank you might not feel like enough, when really we need to do things out of love and desire to make the person you are preforming the acts of SERVICE for happy or have a warm feeling of being loved. I realize this went from a needing to open my own eyes to the fact that the gospel lays the foundation for marriage if we follow the teachings and live our lives like we should be. HUH who knew that all it took was sitting down and writing you get an ahha moment. Anyways back to what i was saying. I know that serving people should be easy and we are taught that it is if we do it with a willing heart but how do we make our "hearts willing"

That is what I am currently working on in my own life.

1 month old

My handsome little man is one month on friday the 8th. I cant believe its been a month already. I love him so much. Logan and I are going on vacation with sean to st. Louis I am super excited but nervous at the same time. I have only flown once ever in my life and i was like 10 so I had someone with me at all times, but this time I have to do it alone, with my son. I am anxious about changing planes in houston and taking a taxi (which I have never done either) to the hotel sean is staying in with all of our gear. (ie: pack and play, stroller, and carseat plus my luggage) Not to mention Logans little ears will probably hurt during lift off and arrival. I am thinking i will give him some tylonal before we go on the plane. I will probably just find someone who is going to the same place as me, and just stick with them during the plane change.

I ordered a sling, to use with him on the trip and I am so stinking excited.


it will help with brest feeding and just being comfy when we are out and about.



this weekend sean and I are taking logan to the corn maze out here to take pictures and going on a hay ride. again I am super excited.

Last night logan and I got in the shower with sean just to see how he would react since he didnt like his toes in the pool yesterday, and hasnt liked the baths but he was calm while we were in the shower he was pressed up against me and it was proab